Happiest Birthday Dear Krishna

 Dear Krishna 

Happiest Birthday!

I still remember the day when I met you in Mayapur, West Bengal in October 2016. It was an ordinary day until that special moment came into my life. It wasn't the first time we were meeting, but whenever
I met you before, I saw only a statue, an imitation of the real you. 

However, that night, after a hectic day of traveling by flight for a couple of hours and then in a car for another three hours, luck favored me, and it felt like you decided to reveal yourself to me. 

When we met amidst the crowd of devotees, in the light of countless diyas, something in me changed forever. I was overwhelmed when I felt your presence, and tears filled my eyes. I couldn't believe that I was actually experiencing your presence. I always thought I didn't have what it takes to connect with you as deeply as I did that night.



I could never imagine that someone like me, who prayed occasionally, could experience this joy. My faith in you was flickering, and I was never able to accept my flaws, let alone correct them. But you were (and still are) so kind that you blessed me with this unforgettable joy of meeting you. How can I thank you enough for this blessing? 

I tried to re-create this feeling by visiting you again the next day, only to realize that it was my once-in-a-lifetime moment.

 I'm happy to live in the memory of that glorious moment. 

I was never the same after that meeting. It may sound dramatic, but I began to see you in everyone I met. Your presence was obvious in some people and obscure in others but I know you're there. 

Maybe this is the feeling of love that movies glorify so much. I'm glad I could finally experience it. 

Our meeting made me a better person. Now, I'm better at understanding other people's emotions and controlling my own. 

After living for years with my emotions all over the place, I knew that my control over them today is your miracle. 

Thank you for giving me the pleasure of connecting with you. I'll be waiting to relive the joy of your presence again.

Much love to you.

Kruti 


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