The Narcissist Says...

I watched a video just now and I felt like it showed me the mirror. I didn't really like what I saw, but it was the truth. The bitter truth!!!!! The speaker in the video threw light on narcissistic traits in most people of the current generation.

I don't know how many people of this generation can identify with this video, but I surely can.
The speaker said parenting is one of the aspects of developing a narcissistic personality.
I can feel good by blaming my parents for what I am.
That's easy! But I am worried about what I have become for whatever reason.

I am a bad girl. And all this time I had a great image of myself.
If you asked me to describe myself I would use words like nice, well mannered, talented and very pretty.
What's shocking is that I easily reject any opinion that contradicts my self image.

In the second year of my graduation I couldn't accept the fact that I didn't top in my favorite subject
even after working so hard. 
I always put the blame on the scribes who helped me write my exams
or the lecturer who evaluated my papers.
Not once did it cross my mind that there are people who are better than me.

So when I come to work in the corporate world, I couldn't understand why I need training to read English
as a proofreading specialist.
With this thought in mind I obviously didn't accept the reviews that came my way.
When my friends mention my narcissism jokingly, I dismiss it.

After watching this video I am embarrassed!!!
I am not as good as I think I am. I AM NOT THE BEST!!!
And it's okay! The problem is, I don't know if I will remember all this.
I am scared of being my old self who is always fishing for compliments. 

Hello people in my life! I am sorry for all the narcissism I threw at you.
Thank you for tolerating my nonsense. Please help me become a better person.


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